I even tried once but the process was so involved, and 25 years after my divorce, the questions were just too painful dig up again.

My heart resisted the call, and even though I was getting tired of being an outsider, I stopped the process.

Eventually, God asked me to reconsider, and I'm glad I did. Through the help of my wife and a men's group I was attending, I began to see many things in a different light. For one, I developed a much better understanding of the sacrament of marriage as a sacred relationship. It is much more than an "I do!" and a piece of paper.